Dragging Myself Down

I feel an uncontrollable craving when I take you in…each pull makes me feel peace and comfort…but it’s all an illusion. I am blinded to all the damage you do to me…I become more and more dependent, as you destroy me from the inside.

I am obsessed to the point that even when I turn my back on you forever, you somehow worm your way back into my life…sneaky, subtle…calling to me as I watch you dance through the lives of those around me…I want you too…more than I care for myself…uncontrollable urges…stronger and more alluring than anything I have ever experienced.

We part for a time and then I begin to believe the lie that my life was in some way better with you in it. I thought I couldn’t live without you but now I know that’s a lie. I see you for who you are, a deceiver and destroyer of everyone you touch.

I have to rid myself of you so that I can live, but I don’t know how.
How do I breath without you?

I ask for strength to stop loving  you one day at a time…

~ S.D.


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