Have you ever…?
Have you ever stood on the edge of a cliff crying, wanting not care just enough so that you could jump?
Have you ever sat in an empty bathtub with a razor pressed against your wrist, too terrified to move?
Have you ever spent an afternoon crafting a noose to hang yourself with, but you couldn’t follow through?
I have been desperate, scared and lost.
I have wanted a quick, permanent fix for temporary, short term misery.
I have had no solution.
I have wanted to give up.
In these times-
I remember: nothing is forever, except death; everything will change eventually; and if worse comes to worse, I can always choose to die tomorrow.
I pray to something I am not always sure is there.
I am honest with another human being.
I search for someone who looks like I feel and ask them, “How I can help?”
I’m still alive and you are not alone.