Today was my last drink and my last drug.
I found myself at the end of a 26 year long run…running away from my feelings…my fears…my self.
I found myself with nowhere to go. Exhausted. Depressed. Hopeless.
I didn’t know how to stop, but I knew I could not go on.
I owe my last trip to the treatment center to my mother, a woman, who I pushed to her absolute limits.
I owe my last trip to the treatment center to my kids, my ex – wife and the rest of my extended family, who finally accepted there was nothing they could do for me.
I owe my last trip to the treatment center to the employers and landlords who finally had had enough of my excuses.
I owe my last trip to the treatment center to the recovered alcoholic/addict who told me that life could be different.
8 years ago today, I surrendered to drugs and alcohol. I had been living my powerlessness since my first drunk…and now, finally, I was able to fully accept the truth of the unmanageability of my own life.
Today, I surrender to the Uni-verse. When I am powerless, I can be Power-filled. I ask a Higher Power to manage that which I cannot. I do the work and the results are handled for me.
I no longer have to fight drugs or alcohol.
When I stay connected to you, me and a Power greater than myself, I have a sane reaction to the insanity of alcoholism.
I have found the treatment… the solution …the program …that, as long as I continue to do it, really works.
Life is different.
I have changed.
I have hope.
Thank you for one more day,