I have been meditating on powerlessness and unmanageablity.
What I understand of Step 1 with regard to alcohol, is this: Powerlessness is the physical “phenomenon of craving” where once started, I can’t control the amount I take. Unmanageability is the mental obsession where I have no control over staying stopped, even when I am not drinking.
Both are associated with personal inability to control something that is uncontrollable.
Looking at powerlessness and unmanageablity- beyond alcohol, I realize I have no control over people, places, things, situations and circumstance.
I suspect that Powerlessness is my inability to control the moment; that which is happening right now. I can see Unmanageablity as my inability to control the future or change the past. Powerlessness and Unmanageablity are my short-sided assumptions that things are not as I want them to be.
The solution for me lies in a Power Greater than myself. With principles such as: acceptance, gratitude, truth, honesty, pause and the ability to act despite fear and self-centeredness, I am able to find “Power” that I have been unable to manifest on my own.
I do what I can (usually taking direction from someone other than myself), once I have made the effort, the results are the responsibility of my Higher Power. My relief and salvation are found in the action and the process of letting go, not the outcome. The byproduct of this “right living” is where I find happiness and contentment. Serenity, peace, balance and relief from my self-imposed crises come from the actions I take.
Today I will work for my freedom.