Regional Prelims – Texas

Son,
Once again, I only say do your best and I have no doubt you will qualify today.
I have watched in awe as you continue to impress everyone who watches. Your drive, stamina and raw talent is undeniable. Know that where you stand today is among the very best at what you do. You have earned that spot through hard work. All you have to do is finish strong.
I say stuff like “race the clock,” but I am no track coach. I am confident that I know my son though. You don’t need to race the clock, but the only person your are racing is yourself. You are your only competition. 
All I have ever asked of you is that you do your best, and you have never let me down. Lead with your best in every racd and you will never fail, no matter the results at the end of the day.
My father used to say I was a gazelle for the way I bounded when I ran. If I am the gazelle, then you are the leopard; faster and quicker than I could ever hope to be. You are a nature’s perfect predator, designed to devour the herd. You don’t give up and that makes you the most dangerous competitor to anyone running alongside you.
Be the leopard.
I always say that luck is where preparation meets opportunity. You are prepared. This is another opportunity. By definition, you have already created your own luck.
Come off the blocks clean and fly over the hurdles with lightening grace as you have always done. When I look at the person you have become, I know you have already won.
I won’t be standing at the finish line today, but I will be with you as I always am.
One race.
Love, 
Dad
#flashtyn

#caltrack 

#gobears

Relapse and the Solution…

In my personal experience, relapse is NOT part of THE program, it is part of someone’s story. Relapse assumes some sobriety, it is not simply a break between using sprees. Relapse is the result of what happens when we refuse to work all of the program. Relapse is what happened to me when I just went to meetings and didn’t do the work to heal, change and grow. 

Statistically, relapse is a huge part of the recovery process because most alcoholics/addicts will end up exhausting all of their human power trying to prove themselves the exception to the rule. They will continue the insanity of addiction and alcoholism until they are mangled enough to accept a radical program of action that requires actual work, and not just intellectual and theoretical contemplation.
Relapse is what happens when the spiritual malady becomes so great that the mental obsession returns and leads me to my default treatment for my damaged internal condition. The obsession takes over and I try the old way again, thereby activating the physical craving and all control is lost. My first solution has always been to get loaded to escape myself. 
Relapse is what happens when I don’t stay connected and fail to continue a program of action. Relapse is when I revert to my former solution for living. I am responsible for my relapse as much as I am responsible for my recovery. 
Once I finally turned my will and my life over to a New Design for Living, there was no relapse. By continuing daily treatment of my internal condition, the obsession to drink or use has not returned. Without the obsession, I no longer have to put a mind altering substance in my body or trigger the physical phenomenon of craving. Relapse happens after I’ve found the solution and stop practicing it on a daily basis.

 

Drugs and alcohol have always been a Power Greater than me.
Today, I have a Higher Power that is stronger than any substance. 
Today, I will live in the solution…
~ S.D.

AO661DD

Before the number you were always the Good Knight. 

They tried to cage the tiger and snuff out your light. 
Thrust in to battle, eclipsed from the sun. 

You stopped drawing on canvass, instead you drew guns. 
The fight of your life in the life of fight. 

Brave, fierce, crushing the gaslight. 
You always had the key, even when you couldn’t see.

Now the tiger’s awakened and the Good Knight is free. 
~S.D.

Focused and Free

I have worshipped idols, people, feelings, material wealth, substances and self.

I have given them all power and control over my being.

My dependence and reliance upon these things fuels my powerlessness and unmanageability.

To search for meaning and purpose in finite, material and human sources has leaves me wanting, unfulfilled.

When I give myself, entirely and absolutely, to these things I take away from the Great Whole.
Conversely, when I turn my thoughts and actions to serving the Greater Good and doing the Next Right Thing, I tap into an unexpected internal resource and discover access to limitless power.

When I no longer exert force to propel myself, I am carried by a Power Greater Than Myself.

I  am guided, directed, safe and protected.

Let me be focused and free.
~S.D.

For you, 

May there be peace within you today.

May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be.

May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith.

May you use those gifts that you have received to pass on the love that has been given to you.

May you be content knowing that you are important as a child of this vast Universe.
Let these notions settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, as you bask in the sunlight of the Spirit.
You were created for this moment and this moment was created for you.
~S.D.
 

Smashed

Smashing the Unsmashable
How do I “smash” a delusion and get beaten into a state of reasonableness?
I keep trying on my own until I have nothing left. 
How does one destroy an craving beyond physical control, an obsession stronger than the mind and a insatiable malady of the soul?

Self knowledge?

Self flagellation?

The love and concern of friends and family?

Therapy, counseling or rehab?

Trying  more control when drinking and using?

AA?

NA?

The Steps?

A Power greater than alcohol and drugs?
I surrender myself to a Power greater than me!!!
~ S.D.

My Brother’s Keeper

“The whole is greater than the sum of the parts.”
A sponsee asked me to talk with a newcomer that wanted to drink.

We talked.

I told him I couldn’t keep him sober anymore than I could keep myself sober, but that I would share my experience, strength and hope with him.

He responded by reaching in his pocket and producing a bag of white powder.

I told him, while neither of us could choose not to be an addict, he could make a decision to not do that dope just for the night.

He asked if I would throw it away for him.

I said no.

I couldn’t do it for him, but reminded him that he could.

We stood together as he dumped out the contents of the bag and crushed the contents under foot.

Then, we stood together and began to cry.

The presence of Something Greater than the two of us was undeniable.

We both stayed sober one more day.

Then, we both decided we would choose to work toward another 24 hours together.
I am still clean and sober today.

The program hasn’t changed.

The solution is the same.

We share a problem, but we are bound by solution. 

Together, we do recover. 
~S.D.