I believe in magic. Prestidigitation and performance parlor tricks are cool, but they simply sleight of hand and illusion; just make believe. For me, real magic is a way of thinking that looks to invisible forces which influence events, effect change and bring the natural world alive into a new light. Magic cannot be sufficiently explained. If one doesn’t believe in it, then it will never exist for them. Conversely, if you look for magic you will see it in all things, great and small.
There are some people who are more in touch with these forces than other. LR was one such mystic practitioner. I met her a couple times, as a friend of a friend. She was a good human and we both shared an unspoken connection. You know, one of those people you’ve never met before, but feel like you’ve known forever. We would end up commiserating together after a series of unfortunate events.
No one knows the sufferer’s grief, except another sufferer. When we lean on one another, we are stronger. LR bolstered my strength when I had none. I like to think I did the same for her. She reminded me that magic was real when I doubted everything. She helped me make sense of a world turned upside down. Supporting another human being is nurturing and intimate. In our mutual vulnerability we found attraction.
She was into astral projection. Some skeptics scoff, but I find it fascinating, and magical. I had been dabbling in stuff like guided meditations, sensory deprivation and lucid dreaming exercises, trying to seek magic on my own. I believe there is so much untapped power that we can access if we would only open our minds to things greater than ourselves.
Astral projection, or transcending one’s physical self to travel across geographical and metaphysical distances, has been described as an out-of-body experience. As it has been explained to me, it is an intentionally manifested phenomenon whereby the astral body travels outside the physical body. LR was well practiced and shared multiple examples of her travels.
I have had psychedelic, out-of-body experiences as a result of drugs like LSD or mushrooms, but this wasn’t that. When she described it, I didn’t think she was crazy or high. But then again, I believe in magic, to someone who doesn’t, this probably seems insane.
When LR brought up leaving her body, I asked if she ever did it during sex. I am basically a 15 year old boy in a man’s body, and always end up making everything into a sexual joke (I work hard to squeeze it innuendo). She didn’t laugh though. To my surprise she said, “Of course!” To be honest, that sounded pretty hot, kinda like watching yourself having sex in real time. TMI?
As I understand it, astral travel can be used to visit other realms or go to different areas of earth without physically dragging your ass there. Since LR and I were geographically separated, I suggested that we meet on the astral plane. She agreed and offered some pointers on how to have an out-of-body experience. Transcendence for dummies 101.
I drew my blackout curtains, turned off all distractions, like I do for regular mediation and got ready to leave my body for a date in another realm. I was able to slip into a trancelike state relatively easily thanks to my nightly practice. My problem is when I am in such a relaxed state, I sink deep quickly, and end up falling asleep. I can’t even remember my dreams when I wake up.
I am pretty sure I stood up LR on the astral plane, but she wasn’t angry or upset about it. So chill. For all I know, she might have been hovering over me, watching me sleep, or perhaps we did hang out and I just don’t remember. Whatever happened, she didn’t tell me; I could have been probed and my memories erased. I didn’t feel as if I was probed, but how can I be sure? One thing I am sure of though, is that I got an amazing night’s sleep, so I would definitely be down to try again. Practice makes perfect.
~S.D.
February 22nd, 2023